Now

Look not at who I have been
Wonder not who I can be
See who I am Now

I’m born every moment
Every moment I die
I am alive only in Now

Life is not what it seems
It’s not about Always,
It’s about Now!

Life is a vehicle without brakes

Imagine yourself waking up inside a vehicle. The vehicle is moving, you are in the driving seat and there is no way to put a break. There’s simply no option for brakes. There’s no option to control the speed either. The vehicle is going full throttle and the only thing you can do is to hold the steering and direct the vehicle as it zooms ahead on an endless path.

Imagine!

How different is it from Life?

You wake you one day and you are told that you have just been born. You grow up and realize that your existence is called your Life that began with your birth. But there is no way to tell when it is going to end and where it is going to end. You can’t put a brake on your life and rest for a while. You can’t even slow down if you want. Life is rushing with Time and you are compelled to keep up with it. You have been given a mind that decides. You can turn it the way you want, but still there is not much in your hand. You can choose directions, but you have no choice of the road. You can only take the road that is in front of you.

Some look at the steering at their hand and believe they have choice to turn it the way they want. They feel content knowing they have a Free Will. While others look at the road ahead and repent that they have not much option to choose from. They would want to be out of the road, but that is not possible. Their Free Will is limited to choosing from the given path. They call their limited choices as Destiny.

But the fact remains no matter what one believes in, all are inside the vehicle that doesn’t have brakes.

Now what can be done in a situation like this?

You know for sure that there is just one certainty: sooner or later the vehicle is going to crash and there is no way it can be avoided.

Obviously the fear of destruction is overwhelming. It is not easy to remain calm when you are going to crash.

Obviously some loose their cool and act rashly. Some being unable to bear the stress crash their vehicle intentionally and thus put an end to their lives before time.

But, not ever one is comfortable with the idea of suicide so they continue driving. However, deep inside, the fear is brewing constantly. On and off the fear shows its influence.

Some convince themselves that since they have their hands on the steering they can pretty much avoid the accident. Perhaps the fuel would get over, the engine would simply die out and the vehicle would come to a stop without any damage. They live a happy life for what they believe in makes their journey less stressful.

Amongst others, some think that even though, all depends on destiny, they can convince destiny to be kind towards them with their prayers or act of righteousness. Some day destiny would smile at them and bless them. Even this sort of people, are happy for what they believe in makes their journey less stressful.

Then there are people who realized there is nothing to worry about. They don’t bother about the crash that would happen in the future. They don’t even crib about their past, as to why they were put in such a situation. All they see is the present moment, where they are alive.

They turn on the AC, play their favorite Music and simply enjoy the Ride!

Worth a dime...

Life has become short
Needs have grown
There’s much to achieve
And time’s an enemy

Juggling has become
The act of survival
From one thing to another
One person to another

Searching hard for one
That fills the need
And that which doesn’t
Is comfortably ignored

It’s the business of Life
Success is everything
Without which
Life is worth a dime

By God

There was a time
When time did not exist
I lived by myself
You were not born yet

There wasn’t Universe either
Till I dreamed of it
And a seed was sown
Which grew full bloom

Then you came alive -
Most beautiful creation
I adored you the most
And let you Free Will

Now has come a time
You’ve become the Universe
You’ve put everything at stake
Fighting for your survival

You crave for Life
You dread about death
So scared you are…
You fear your reflection

Now I worry for you
What’ll happen to you
When I finally tell you
It’s just a Dream

Eyes

You need not speak to me
I need not listen to you
What use words can be?
When eyes speak so clearly

They tell me who you are
They tell me how you think
They tell me what you feel
They tell me everything

They haunt me in dreams
They pull me towards you
Pardon me my staring
I can’t take my eyes off you

Haiku

I stare my cell now
Chewing brain with vibration
So much for luxury
...

Dad’s after money
And Mom’s busy with TV
Poor child grows itself
...

I scan my closed room
And the life that passed by me
Both empty like me
...

Let the axe to drop
On the neck that bears the pain
It’s freedom forever
...

I walk beside you
Like a shadow too stubborn
Me, your reflection
...

I’m told, life begins
When thoughts cease to rise within
But mind won’t listen
...

Peace v/s Violence

Like most young rebellious teenagers, I have laughed at Gandhi and his ideals of non-violence. I studied about Gandhi just because it was a part of the course curriculum. To me, Gandhi appeared to be a person who screwed India’s freedom struggle. There was lot of animosity towards Gandhi and his idea of non-violence was rated as utter crap and outdated concept.

With an extremist approach, I found Gandhi as a loser and cheered for fighters like Subhash Chandra Bos, Bhagat Singh and Mangal Panday. I believed in their principles and supported their cause. It was more heroic than that of Gandhi’s. On top of it, the fact that they gave up their lives added an extra glamour to their sacrifice. Obviously, the young bloods preferred freedom fighters and I was no different from the pack.

I remember arguing against Gandhi and praising the deeds of the freedom fighters. The very thought of these rebellious leaders triggered the adrenaline rush within. It felt good to talk like them and think like them.

Somehow I subconsciously accepted Violence as the symbol of strength and Non-violence as a sign of weakness. As a result, the ‘Tit for Tat’ approach seemed to be the only smart decision and Forgiveness sounded good only in spiritual anecdotes.

I didn’t realize that I was subconsciously sowing a seed of Violence within me, which grew like a weed making every cause to fight justifiable. My urge for a fight reflected in my behavior towards others. My siblings, my friends, my colleagues, whoever it was I always found something to fight for, with them. Whether it was a friend going overboard bullying me or a sibling not allowing me to watch my favorite show, the cause always seemed right and I always stood up for a fight.

But this is not just my story. I have heard many people cribbing and bitching about similar issues. This is the case with everyone.

We all are used to Violence. We choose Violence over Peace, simply because Violence makes us feel powerful and this feeling is what we crave for. We know the person we are fighting with is a sibling, a friend or for that matter a human like us. Yet to forgive, we cannot afford. Somewhere it starts raising a doubt within us whether the act of forgiveness is a sign of weakness. To satisfy ourselves, we fight. We convince ourselves that the cause is strong enough and justify the fight.

Today, we have each gradually grown into a violent person. We don’t want Peace. But this was not the case. In nature, everything was meant to be at Peace. We too are part of this peaceful Existence. But our urge to prove ourselves has lured us to violate the Nature’s law and become violent.

However, our violent nature never comes into the limelight. We fight with a fellow commuter while traveling to office, because we think he pushed us. We fight with our family or relatives because we think they are exploiting us. We fight with our spouse thinking our partner is being unfair to us. We fight a lot, but our fights get overlooked. It is not highlighted like wars between nations. So we think we are normal people and there is nothing wrong with us. We don’t even realize how violent we have become.

I am sure it would crop up in the minds of many fellow readers that sometimes it becomes a requisite. Some times one has to fight for life. One would say – “If a person is intending to kill me, I can just say, Please be my guest. I will have to fight for my life.”

I understand this argument, but the idea of non-violence is not meant for one person. It is for all. If somehow all follow non-violence then there would be no person intending to kill another human. But to expect that is to ask for Utopia. There will be threat to life and there will be fight for life from natural calamities and from beasts. That is justifiable. Perhaps, it is justifiable even when an un-awakened soul is hell-bent on killing you. When you can’t take sense into the other being, the best option is to stand up and fight for your Life.

The focus is not on those extreme situations in Life but rather on the day-to-day Living.

Is a favorite TV show, a favorite attire or any other belonging, a worthy cause to fight with a sibling?
Is getting little pushed over or stepped over, a worthy a cause to get into fist-fight with an absolute stranger?
Is Wealth or Land, a worthy cause to cut through the bloodline of our ancestors?
Is Politics, a worthy cause to pull out a partition and divide a nation?
Is Race, a worthy cause to burn human beings alive?

Some may say Yes and be proud about it. There is absolutely no way to prove them Wrong. But the fact remains, they have become Violent and in being so they are violating the natural state of Peace.

Gandhi’s non-violence approach may have definitely affected India’s freedom fight, but it has surely saved Humanity from becoming a Monster. He has, in his own little way delayed the process, which today seems like inevitable.

Today, we fight for Education. Education is supposed to help us become more mature. Ironically, we have ended up fighting for seat reservations. Today we fight over Religion, which was devised to help humanity transcend the normal being. Instead of transcending to higher level, we have stooped further low and have humiliated humanity by our act. Today, we fight for Love, which just reveals the height of human ignorance. Love the most divine feeling, the essence of peace being the sole cause of hatred and triggering violence.

We can continue with this madness or we can simply start asking ourselves - is the fight really required? Can’t we let go of our desire to fight?

Love V/s True Love!

I am sure we might have heard some one saying, “This time, it’s a true love.” Perhaps we might have said it ourselves.

What I am trying to convey is that we talk about Love and True Love as if they are different from each other. What we see around us is LOVE. And then suddenly we find someone who acts differently than the average rational human. We admire the person and make a statement – That’s a True Love.

Does this mean that the other Love that inflicts the average humans is not a true one? It is hard to nod an Yes to that question.

The other day I was having an argument over this with a friend of mine. My friend held an opinion that –“Ups and Downs are there in all Relationships.”

I argued that – “That shouldn’t be the case. There can be Ups and Downs in Life events, but why should there be any in a Relationship?”

“We have just formed this concept to console ourselves because we have yet not figured out a way to have a conflict-free Relationship. And it is hard and perhaps impossible for some to accept that the fault lies with us.”

Continuing with my argument I stated, “What at present, humans experience is not Love. It’s a Psuedo Love. I am not saying people are cheating on their loved ones. What I am saying is, we have been cheated ourselves. For ages, we have got this definition of love and we have come to believe in it.”

What we experience when we find someone special, we call it Love.

Mostly we do it because almost everyone is seeking a Relationship as if it is a Life Support System. Relationship has been hyped to such an extent that Life appears to be incomplete if you are not in a Relationship. And to get into a Relationship, you need to Love. So Love becomes the most cherished emotion.

Definitely, none of us have any clear idea of what Love is.

If a guy falls for a girl just because he finds her attractive, it is called Love.
If a girl starts dating a guy just because he fits her criteria’s of a Life Partner, it is called Love.

The saddest part is that for most people – Love doesn’t happen. They make it happen.
People go to great heights to achieve a Relationship. They compromise and forgive, if required. Some even kill themselves or worst kill other people for the sake of their relationship.

All is done in the name of Love, for the sake of Love. And then the lovers eagerly get into a Relationship. Once the Relationship is formed the goal is achieved. Then there seems no need to put in any more efforts. So they comfortably start being themselves and that’s when the conflict arises. When we start being comfortable we unknowingly ignore if the other person is getting uncomfortable with us. Most of the time our default nature is not acceptable to the other person. That is why we mask it in the beginning of a Relationship. But the mask has to be taken off. It can’t be kept on forever. And when we reveal our default nature we end up causing trouble in the Relationship.

Either one decides to quit a relationship or decides to bring about changes in the other person so the relationship can become feasible for oneself.

This feeling is mutual. So both partners keep fighting about what the other person should have or shouldn’t have done.

Obviously, no one likes being judged as Wrong. Some defend themselves and keep the grudge within while others argue and omit their feelings out on their partner.

Thus begins arguments, fights and often it ends in a Divorce. Not necessarily, a Divorce is a legal separation. For me a Divorce has happened when one of the partners has already thought of quitting the relationship. Whether or not the partners go for Divorce, doesn’t make a difference.

We have seen our parents and relatives fighting. We hear the same stuff in the stories we share amongst friends. We get the same stories in the Novels we read, movies we see.

It is fed into us every now and then. We are bound to accept that “All relationships go through Ups and Downs.” It is not anyone’s fault. When the whole humanity thinks alike, it obviously isn’t one person’s fault.

My friend refused to agree with me.

Yet, I still believe – Relationships need not go through Ups and Downs.

Because the Ups and Downs happen when we follow the Ego. It is our Ego that tells us that the other person is Wrong and needs to change. It is our Ego that tells us that we know what is best for our loved ones and that is why we should lead and others should follow. It is our Ego that wants Life to move in the way it wants. It is our Ego that causes all conflicts.

But the problem is that the Ego has so taken over ourselves, that we have been totally covered up with it and lost our true identity. When we judge someone we judge the Ego of the person, but we point our fingers at the person. Because the thin line between the Ego and the true Self is invisible to us. And the person who has been judged, doesn’t realize that it is the Ego that is being judged and takes it personally. Even to this person the thin line between the Ego and the Self is invisible. So this person now nurses negative feelings towards the person who judged. And, now to this person, the person who judged becomes Wrong. This person too fails to see the Ego in the other person.

It is the same story with all of us. We don’t realize the very act of judging is an activity of the Ego and not of the Self. So the loop goes on – We judge and get judged in return. And in the process make a mess of our Relationships.

I still believe that the Love we see around and the Love we experience is a Pseudo Love.

True Love leaves no scope for Conflicts.

Relax in the Being!

In Nature, no being will ever try to prove what it already is. A tree will never try to prove that it is a tree, nor a seed will try to prove itself a seed. No being, except for mankind has ever suffered with an identity crisis. None of the beings have ever experienced any conflict with their true self. All have the necessary intelligence to understand the Reality of their individual Existence. And perhaps that is why there is such peace in their existence.

Unfortunately, somewhere during the process of Existence, Humanity mutated in its consciousness and ventured into an alienated domain of Fantasy. This tour of Fantasyland has continued ever since and very few have managed to realize that it is a trip away from Home, a trip that was not meant to last forever, ultimately they need to go Home. These fortunate few have somehow managed to reach Home. That leaves the rest of us who are still trapped in the Fantasyland and have got so used to it that now we find it strange when someone says - it’s not Real! For most of us, the situation is so worse that we want the Fantasyland to be real.

Somehow we have developed a craving for a situation other than What Is. We are not happy with What Is. We constantly crave for Change. Some of us proudly refer the saying that – Change Is Inevitable. There is just one flaw in this saying – it originated within the sphere of the Fantasyland and hence it holds true only within the boundaries of the Fantasyland. In Reality, Existence is ever Constant, there is no Change. How can there be any Change when there is no scope for any Change in any given moment. Change requires Time, and Existence is beyond the dimensions of Time.

However, we ignore that and justify our individual seeking by convincing ourselves that Mankind was meant to evolve. That Evolution is the purpose of Mankind.

It simply seems we are all inflicted with inferiority complex. We are not happy with who we are. We strive to grow, to evolve, to reach a destination that does not exist.

Whether it is money, fame, security, love or enlightenment – all those who seek are craving for the impossible. All our so called Goals in life are just Concepts, whether it is wealth, status, comfort, love or for that matter the ultimate realization – all are but Concepts that were sown on the fertile ground of the Fantasyland. It is obviously impossible for Concepts to emerge as Reality, because the very ground where the Concepts are born is perishable. All that Begins will End. A Concept originates and so shall it perish. But Reality remains as it is. We can mask it with any Concept we want. But beneath the Masks, Reality remains intact. Someday the Masks will worn out and Reality will emerge afresh.


In Reality we are just Humans, like the trees are just trees, animals just animals, birds just birds and stones just stones.

But to be content with being JUST Humans is what trouble us. We want to be something more than that… may be better Humans, or Messiahs or God almighty himself, if possible.

Our need for this switch is the root cause of the chaos that we constantly experience.

If only we realize that we are just Humans and there cannot be any glamour in our existence just because we crave for it, we would perhaps gradually settle down and give up the quest for the gold that does not exist.

Yes. It is possible to achieve the goals set in the Fantasyland but that achievement is also a Fantasy. In Reality, we have not changed. We are still Human at the core. No matter our achievements, no matter our failures, we cannot Change our being Human. We can calls ourselves, rich, poor, winner, loser, good bad, sinner, saint but at the core we are all just Human.

No matter, what we do, what we try to be, we cannot Change the Reality – that we are but JUST Humans.

In the end, if we all need to return to the Source. Then what is the point in running in all the different directions and exerting ourselves.

Why Can’t We Just Be Where We Are As Who We Are And Simply Relax?